Hi, I am having difficulty letting go of feelings of responsibility I have about being raped by my psychiatrist in 1989. He is dead now but I still feel like I have to protect him and myself from the terrible truth. It was violent and frightening. I had known him for 5 yrs. before it happened, I just wanted it to go away. I am still embarrassed today. There was so much he did, I can't let it go.