I'm only 14 and all I want to do is kill myself. I feel as if no one cares about me and they all just hate me. I know I have all this life ahead of me but I'm losing all hope in my life. I have tried putting my thoughts in a journel, but it never works. I have hopes and dreams but I'm starting to give up on all life. Everynight and day I think about what my life could have been if I could change one thing, just one little thing. I want a husband, I want kids, I want to go to finish High School and go to college and teach kids but I'm starting to give up. The only time I feel calm is when I'm sleeping but even them I'm not calm. I dream about killing myself. I know this is long but its nice to be able to tell someone this cause its been bottled up inside for about 3 years now. And while I'm at school I feel like everyone is looking and making fun of me and all I want to do is die. I feel I'm not pretty enough or tall enough or skinny enough. I just want to die and be out of this world.