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Originally Posted by kazza29
Recently I was in a psychiatric hospital for attempted suicide.After 2 weeks they diagnosed me with BPD and basically discharged me straight away,I went back again after feeling suicidal again but the staff treated me differently and gave me strong hints that I did not belong there.I was discharged the next day.They made me feel like a right attention seeker.Its the wrong diagnosis.I dont fear abandonment as I avoid being in relationships and yes I do feel lost but wouldnt you if you didnt belong on this planet.I have actually seen my home planet and been visited by another species but they think I am making it all up.I dunno what to do,they want me to attend therapy for something I have not got.I told them I do not have BPD but they will not listen.I will never be taken serious again.If I go through a crisis I will not be taken serious.Do I have the rights to reject treatment .I am over 18.
sorry about the rant
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So your main(?) issue is that you feel like you don't belong here? it seems like a big deal to you because the staff's treatment and comments seem to have stuck in your mind as well as the feelings/beliefs you have about not belonging on this planet. Is this partly why you feel depressed? I've spoken to quite a number of people who feel they don't belong here...starseeds...you're an oddball among many oddballs. hmm, trying to recall something...an article..thinking.. can't think...I'll come back to it if I can remember...
why do you avoid relationships? how can you be abandoned if you're never in a relationship? sounds like avoidance behaviour to me, you're avoiding the situations where when things don't go 'right' you might get hurt.
Anyway, the fact that you have incarnated here (on Earth) means that you DO belong here irrespective of where you came from before now or where you will go after now. It's not a mistake. This is your reality. You're projecting yourself out of the present moment and that is causing internal conflict.
I don't know what your view of the world or your life is, but it appears to me that it doesn't match your expectations so you're reaching for those 'greener pastures'...thinking/believing it would be better to be back there (or anywhere else) instead of here. Do you really know that it'd be better for certain? how do you know? what is making you think that here is not where you're supposed to be? what is your dissatisfaction with life here?
I personally think that if you learnt some mindfulness and acceptance techniques that would help you ground somewhat.