(((Cowboy1))) - I do believe in a greater power than us - life is so special, we ordinary humans cannot be responsible for life or death. Although I gave permission for the doctors to give my father an injection to make his breathing less distressed when he was so poorly and realise that the injection probably sped up his death, ultimately I do believe that his body was tired and worn out and it was his time to go.

He does remain with me in my heart, in pictures he drew, in his bad jokes I remember (they were not funny at the time but now they make me smile). Death and loss is such hard thing - I do not believe we ever forget, but I have to beleive that the pain does lessen in time.

We have a charity called CRUSE in the UK who help people when they have lost someone so close, I think talking about your loved one can help the healing. I am not sure whether there is a similar thing near where you are?

Thinking of you today as I also think of my father. Soup