Well, I'm sure that with your gustatory nerves diminished, it probably seems like a blessing to lose your appetite. I can relate to the high when you're inspired to lose weight. I was just reading research that seemed to suggest that anorexics tend to get a significant high from starving / restricting whereas the obese tend to get their high when they eat. I can certainly vouch for it. The article was probably even presented here on PC. I'm probably not what you would call "recovered" or "struggling with recovery". I accept me the way I am, bulimically anorexic. The Romans had their vomitoriums and now it's supposed to be a health hazard. Of course, yes, big difference in practice. lol

My struggle is with resisting the urge to binge after I've been doing so well avoiding it. There is a point at which the high from starving disappears and depression sets in. I can't stand that feeling. It's dismal, discouraging, low-energy and uninspiring. My brain rejects that state of being. The brain cells signal "we want food!" And food they get. Until the guilt sets in and out it goes. Then I'm back on my high for several days or a couple of weeks. And so it goes.