So...I have been trying to keep going...trying to live each day. But, it's really not working. I go through the motions and that's all. I don't feel anything, know anything, care about anything. I am simply numb. I did start at a new therapist, she seems pretty nice. I don't know that I even want to do that anymore. I just want to crawl into a hole and die. I give up on life. I may just exsist, but cannot live...I have no way to life. No hope to live. Therefore I am only here.

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]