I am sure that I lost it yesteday. As bad as it sounds I think it was good. I needed to get everything out. It felt good to get things out in the open. It doesn't really change anything but coping is easy. Also I am at my boyfriends for a week so I do not have to deal with my parents. I am just scared for when I go back to my house. My parents will treat me the same way. I know they will. I will get really down. I don't want to do anything stupid. I know I need to get out of the house but I can't. Certain circumstances prevent me from doing that. I wish I wasn't so trapped. I need to get out so bad but I can't. What the hell!!!