I totally understand. I have been "recovered" for about 11 years now. But, I recently suffered a concussion and I cannot exercise or anything, which is killing me. I have always since "recovery" obsessed about my weight, but now that I can't exercise, I am freaking. I have actually lost 5 pounds, but I don't feel like it at all, in fact, quite the opposite.

I guess my whole point to answer your question, is YES, omgosh I was SO happy to see the scale move, and know what I am capable of, but am scared of that fact. I guess my one lucky thing is that with my brain recovering, I cannot physically do the things I would have to do in order to succumb to the ED again.

I agree with Miguel's Mom that maybe get some help or continue talking here so that you don't go down that path again. Because of your post, it seems like you are tempted, but are just tempted. Definitely catch it before it is too late. The forum here is a great start.

best of luck, keep us posted