I hope that you find your way up the slope, or even away from it. It is sooo hard. I am finding that even after 11 years, I deal with the same thing.

I don't say that to discourage you of course! I just want you to know that there are people out here that are feeling the same way you do. We can't lose hope, just keep trying. (easier said than done as I struggle day by day as well.)

hugs to you. Keep us posted. We are all here for each other.