Hi, Dark Heart. I'm so sorry to hear this. It is a terrible feeling, and I can relate to your struggle. I had a job I was not very happy with for about 3 years until I got a new one about 11 months ago. I had the same problem - it was just very stressful and I did not get along with everyone there. The anxiety and racing thoughts, mood swings, and other feelings were overwhelming at times. At one point I went home early because I had to get out and felt like I needed to be hospitalized. It used to be such a relief to go home, and then I dreaded going to work every day.

I honestly feel that it was my unhappiness with the job and the fact that I did not fit in there, because the new job I have been at for a little less than a year has had the exact opposite effect, even though there is more pressure to perform than my last job! The difference is that I really like the people I work with and the environment is just so much more calm and professional. I don't feel judged and everyone is pleasant. I actually manage BETTER at work now than I do at home - home life can be stressful with two disabled children. Work sometimes has a calming effect where I can concentrate on something other than issues with my kids, working along with people I like being around.

I wish you all the best in finding something better. I really think you will find that if you are happier at work, you will be able to manage much better. Maybe work will always be stressful, but hopefully it does not have to be miserable.