Those are all really great questions and deserve a session or three. Definitely fodder for the face to face sessions. Email would not be the right way to discuss these important concerns, IMO. Good luck at your next session with this.

Can you say more about what you meant about misdirecting your anger at your T? Was your email and its questions supposed to be angry? It didn't come off as angry to me. That is the problem with email--if you are angry and want your T to know it, that emotion may not even come through in the written word. I hope you can work on whatever it is that is making you angry in session.

Only if you let it. That is within your control.