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If it's not one thing, it's another. Ever feel like even if you take yourself out of harms way, no matter how you change things, disaster seems to follow some people? I feel like it follows me. I see people all of the time laughing joking, not a care in the world. Everything goes right for them. Nearly every day is a good day, and when they have a bad day, it's only once in a blue moon so they can handle it. Or maybe they are just stronger.
I'm away from all abuse but things still go wrong. I still find myself in a massive car accident, ******trigger*********I still see a girl deceased on the side of the road while her friend was screaming out of the car and they were bridesmaids for a wedding they just left. I still have medical issues just spring up. Things just always go wrong. I find myself waist deep in the river in the middle of February running from 5 vicious dogs, it's always there. I'm not safe no matter what I change. I'm away from the abuse but some dark thing just follows me. Maybe this is negative thinking, but even when I'm at a good point in life, something happens to crush me down again. Am I the only one with this problem? When things should be GREAT right now, and I've finally found happiness and no abuse, somehow horror follows me. I just want to be stress free for a little while, event free, scare free. If other people can have that for most of their lives, why can't I have it for just a short time?!
Once I start to heal from something a brand new issue arrises or gets brought back to the surface. It's a nasty cycle and I just want the cycle to stop.
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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