Hello AnonUser.

Of course you are encouraged to seek professional help. It is considered a "perversion" and needs attention. Most pedophiles do realize that it isn't the norm, and sometimes embarassment is an emotion they sense...and guilt... but then you could explain this more adequately than I!

If it wasn't a big deal and pedophiles could "fix" themselves, you would! But it does require expert help. Try to avoid the rationalization you must run into when telling yourself it isn't such a bad thing. It is. Try and think of the ppl you hurt... the children....

Again may I encourage you to get help immediately? You are worth it. That you have posted here (assuming you aren't just trying to get a reaction to members) shows you really do want to change.

Come back and post often... You might consider using the Trigger Icon for those who might not realize what you are writing about. There are many members here, as you suspected, who were victimized by those who could not, and would not, control themselves.

Good wishes. Let us know when you find help. Sending you energy to do the right thing.....

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