Hi, welcome to PC. I am glad you came here and shared. There are many wonderful people on the site that can relate and offer support and a solid online support system.

You've taken the first step: getting it out Now you can build from here.

Have you spoken with your MD regarding the D? Do you have a T. that you can speak with? (I realize money is tight. perhaps there is a community center in your area that has counseling / availability on a sliding scale). There are lots of resources.

Please do not give up. I know how hard it is (I was there), but it DOES get better. I never in a million years thought I would be in the place I am in today (compared to where I was less than a year ago) - it does get better. It's not easy but it DOES get better.

Keep posting and sharing and reaching out. Your thoughts and feelings are important and you do not have to suffer alone. We are here.