I have a friend who (like me) had an extremely abusive childhood. When I met her, she was much farther in the recovery process than I. When I asked her if the "new issues" keep popping up, she told me, "Healing is like peeling an onion. There's always another layer, and it always makes you cry. BUT the layers get thinner and easier to peel, and you don't cry as much." I remind myself of this when a "new issue" (actually, an OLD issue) comes up. I also remind myself something that I learned by myself, that you attract what you most fear. If you are afraid that there will always be darkness following you, you're right. As Richard Bach said, "Argue for your limitations, and, sure enough, they're yours." Please know that it gets better and that staying as optimistic as you can will dispel much of the darkness.
(((PFM)))