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Thank you, I really hope tonight is better. From what I was told, my sleeping habits cause me to go into REM sleep immediately when I fall asleep. I had a terrible dream last night that my father was trying to kill me, killed my child and then my fiance came in and killed my father while he was strangling me. This all happened from 9:30am-10am this morning. Long dream, not long sleep. I have the same problem though as you. I go to bed and it takes FOREVER to fall asleep, then I get about 45minutes to 2 hours tops before I'm wide awake. I try not to get out of bed but none the less I'm still wide awake, I had my eyes closed ALL night last night, even when I went to the restroom, I just don't know... When I do sleep I have bad dreams and I go right into REM sleep when I do sleep so I'm getting no in between phase. It's really taking a HUGE toll on me. I am so worn out. I just can't hardly function any more. My energy is non existant. I just want to sleep all day to make up for the night but no matter when I try to sleep it's just useless. I just need SOMETHING to help me sleep. Sleeping meds don't work well so I don't want to go that route plus I have a 4 year old I have to be up with in the mornings, but I'm useless to her the way I am right now.
I just want sleep, it's not too much to ask, but it seems impossible to reach. I'm so tired of being tired. I'm so worn out. I have my psych appointment tomorrow to get on new meds since all I've been taking the last 4 weeks are the meds the hospital gave me which are weak anxiety meds. I hope she can help me, I hope someone can. Perhaps a sleep study... I'm just sick of feeling sick... Sick of being tired. What comes naturally for others is only a burden to me and it's sooo incredibly tiring. Just want to curl up in a ball and sleep... Wouldn't that be nice
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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