Hi,
I to have Stockholm syndrome, I protected my aggressor for 23 yrs more than 13 years after he died. I know what you mean about the the difficulty trying to explain is heavy. My doctors try hard to get me to see how I was wronged and the great wrong that was done to me. Intellectually I get it, but emotionally I'm not there.
Good Luck I hope you see your good worth soon,
Sami