I'm not sure what to say. But the moment I start to really believe what freak is saying is the moment I kill myself.

FREAK, that isn't acceptable man! You aren't a loser or freak, you are sick. I'm not gonna sit here and tell you that being a permanent outcast is somehow "okay" or a "part of you". You can and WILL get better. I know you can do it. I can do it. We all can.