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Originally Posted by PlatinumHeart
Hello everyone!
I have an issue I don't understand. I am always bored. Like very bored. I have no want or drive or stimulation to do anything. I don't want to go out and socialize because I feel I am too fat to do anything.
I just don't have a need. TV doesn't help, even being online doesn't help like it used to. I tried to pick up a book to read and I couldn't. I guess I am feeling lost because a friend of mine I was looking forward to talking to disappeared on me and I feel like I have no one to talk to. I hate feeling this way. I guess this is one of those low moods that comes to being bipolar.
Does anyone else feel chronic boredom? Like nothing can stimulate you?
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Wow, I'm so glad I read this! I'm a newbie here. I've been bipolar 2 for 25 years. Although, the only time I ever had mania was 25 years ago while on antidepressants without mood stabilizers. Otherwise, just chronic depression. Really chronic.
Lately I've been just like you. Usually I'm ok with going online, watching certain tv shows, etc. But now nothing at all interests me. Except now that I found this new place which helps a little. I think with me part of it is that I have a family who *is* interested in stuff,, my husband is a techie who is always taking pics and posting them on social media, my 12 year old daughter too, they both are basically happy (and boy, I am glad of that for them) but it accentuates how I am. Part of it is that I am 55 and a total techno-dummy, I could take photos off a camera and upload them if I absolutely had to but barely. I can barely take a good pic with our camera. My eyes are bad and I have never been technical or good with manual things.
My husband has also been diagnosed with prostate cancer which is early stage and very treatable, but it bothers me more than him, knowing how much he'll have to go through this summer with the surgery. I feel like a real drag on my family most of the time. I call what I have "anhedonia" which is a fancy term I learned a long time ago which means that nothing gives you pleasure. The one thing I still do is work out, but not as regularly as I used to. None of my meds work and nothing new the doc puts me on helps.
Anyway, best of luck to all of you!