Just one thing ..... take it moment by moment, session by session, and put aside the worry and the expectation that you'll junk things up. Sometimes letting a certain thought become too big of an expectation in our heads leads to it being fulfilled when it wouldn't really have to be - like T1 said to me, making it a self-fulfilling prophecy. Don't make the prophecy, then maybe it won't be fulfilled. Make the opposite prophecy, that you will be as honest as you can, moment by moment. Give yourself permission to think it may very well go differently this time, because why couldn't it?! Of course it can!