How long has this feeling been going on for? Did it ever happen before this? This might be temporary. There is some mistrust between both sides thinking irrationally (maybe), about assuming theyre looking for someone else. It is okay to have feelings of suspicion but it becomes a problem if you’re putting it out in a way that hurts that relationship rather than working it out with an understanding, calm communication. But this is a hard thing when you’re burnt out and deeply stressed.
A good thing is that you know how you feel and you know that it’s just a feeling, and not fact. It seems you put your 10 yr old’s therapy and being a mother of 6 puts no time in for yourself, my classmate has 7 kids and just now after 35 years she could can take time for herself to go back to school. You need time for yourself, completely, if it’s possible to take a few hours in a quiet room, listening to your favorite music, taking a walk, talking to your friends, anything to take you away from the full time job
You are not the cause of any discord a family requires everyone’s involvement and you’re seeking support that's a very positive thing, I may not share the same experience, but I am listening to you
Good luck
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