I completely understand how you feel. Although mine didn't happen in one year, I have lost everyone I've ever loved. It's been 5 weeks since I lost my husband and I feel completely empty inside, like I'm just going through the motions of living, but nothing really matters anymore. All I have left are our 2 cats, and really it seems like they'd be happy with anyone who fed and petted them. I have people I talk to who try to help, but the pain is just so bad. I don't feel complete anymore without him. I know it takes time to start to heal, but right now I just don't see any way that this pain will get better.