You might have read it in the other thread: I might lose my job and with it, possibly my accommodation; I am considered as not fulfilling the requirements for my professional grade / level and I don't cope with that verdict at all.

I need some help, some advice as to what to do.

Most of all, I feel useless and ashamed of myself because I am not good enough, which is what I have always believed throughout my life and seems to have been confirmed.

I feel completely useless as a person and a complete waste of space at the moment. I don't want to die, but I can see that I am not contributing anything positive to the world - I thought I might at least have done so a bit in my work.

Should I give up? At the moment, I despise myself. My life feels so extremely useless and pointless. Is there a reason for me to be here still?