Do you ever get suicidal when you are manic?

I do.

Its a bad little trap I will tell you that...

What can I even do for it? Cant up my dose of SSRI's... that will probably make it worse.

Dont wanna hook myself to an IV drip of antipsychotics either.

Just wanna pull my hair out. Run around and scream.
Set things on fire. smash windows with my fists.

What do you do for this? Is it very common?