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Thank you. I've only ever seen one seizure before and it was nothing like what I experienced. My ex's Grandmother had seizures but hers, she would just start moving her arm back and forth and saying loudly "HEY!" or "Hey you!" She wouldn't respond if you asked her questions or anything really but that's about what she did. With mine, the first was a "grand mal" seizure, but to be fair, I was experimenting with a "no no drug" mushrooms so it was all blamed on that. No one considered the fact that I had a panic attack about taking them before I even took them, still unintelligentally took them as to not ruin everyones night, continued having anxiety until the seizure happened. The second one wasn't a "grand mal" but I basically stared blankly, went limp and fell into my fiances lap, he had to hold me up while he was driving, that's when my body tensed and I collapsed again and then came back vomiting. Before the second seizure I was in the middle of a panic attack. My last thought was "there is no way I can go to work feeling like this" because of the anxiety.
I don't remember anything at all, I just go blank. I'm just going by what my fiance has told me I do. When I come back to my ears are ringing I have a headache and I throw up. But haven't wet myself or anything of that sort, no bitten tongue etc etc.
Do you remember when you have them, what happened? How do you feel going into them and how do you feel getting out of them, I know it can be triggering to talk about and apparently cause one just to think about sometimes, so you don't have to answer questions you don't feel comfortable with. I'm just so worried about these, it's truly scary. And I honestly don't want to have epilepsy, it's hard enough trying to function with my dissociation and such, add on a seizure disorder and IDK. I am so worried I may have these the rest of my life. So it's kind of, and I mean slightly, comforting thinking it isn't a problem in my brain (if it is these psuedo) and more of a stress problem, stress can sometimes be easier to fix then could a brain... But I know nothing about this, I'd just like to learn more in case it is what I have...
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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