Hi NinaNina --

My brain chemistry is a little off, I guess, and finding the right anti-depressant has made a big difference. I don't like taking it, and it does not mean that I am just happy, happy, happy all the time.

It means that when I am unhappy, I can recognize that there are unhappy and happy times in life and be more philosophical about it. Maybe, too, this is partly becoming more mature, because I am an old dog now.

It wasn't easy to find the right med; not like walking into a Dr's office and he wriites a scrip for Prozac and suddenly life is all better.

But it has made a difference, and this may be worth a try.

As well, I think in the USA we feel entitled to be happy all the time. But how can I know I'm happy if I do not experience unhappiness, too? That's the way I can think about this now.

I hope you find the solution that works for you. We are here for you.