Thank you, everyone. I try and clear my head over the next few days. I had signed up to go to a literature festival with some people from my social club from today to Sunday and although I feel shattered, tired due to a lack of sleep and exhaustion and upset and horrible I am going now. Even if it only takes my mind off things a little bit.

I'll reply properly soon. Thank you for the detailed advice, Rose. I find it so incredibly difficult to control my impulses and not to snap. You've obviously learned how to do it, which is great.