It's been 3 years since I lived here, except this time I have no car, so I guess I'm going to be borrowing my parent's cars to leave the house, or at least until I buy my own car.

It brings up a lot of issues. The first of which is that I feel I am going backwards. I've lived here before when I was younger, now I'm back here again. Except without a car this time. And of course I'm 3 years older.

I am far away from my support network. MY GP, support group, psychologist are all 60 miles away or more. I need to be in the vicinity of my doctor because I panic about my health sometimes and I feel that I need to see him immediately. He's about an hour and a half away by car. I won't change doctors; I see him because of his bedside manner which is good for my health anxiety. I guess I can still visit my support group on Mondays, but it's going to be a long, lonely drive home afterwards. I don't have a problem with being so far away from my psychologist.

The only support network who I am still close to is Psych Central, and I'm so grateful for that right now.

I feel so close to tears, and I guess when my parents go to sleep I will try and cry under the covers.

I don't know what else to feel, I'm a little confused as well as isolated right now.

I look forward to chatting to you all soon.

Toilet.