LadyJane- sorry if this is late, seeing so many good things already said but ya know for me atleast with cleaning up from hard drug use for escaping and some more so than just escaping, it took several tries. i can remember atleast five vivid times of i am done with drugs but always fell back until one day i said no more of this life. yeah some claim i still relaps with two things but haven't touched coke, meth, x, lsd, shrooms or unknown things that would get me high
if you were able to do it for over two months you can do it again.
oh and yeah i know the feeling of people being so proud and going back, it is a horrible feeling but after time goes on after your ''give it another try'' and years pass i hope you'll find understanding from it all, and reflect and find that you have grown from this spot... it maybe a negative thing now but in the future it can be a very positive thing. hope that makes scense. well wishes to you.