Thanks everyone for your nice, kind replies. Its so nice to know that I am not alone by any means. Cocoa, my husband has been through hell with me but he supports me and I know that he loves me a lot. I am very thankful and lucky for that. He is a little scared right now, but so am I. Although really I know deep down that I have to get some help. I am feeling very very down at the moment, very slow moving and my mind is in a fog. I will just have to go with it for now.

Hi Planning....I will try and keep posting, thanks for your support.


Ali