Gaah, i am so mad at them for this, everyone who hurt me! Instead of playing dolls and jumprope, i was beaten and hurt. Instead of getting help with my school work i was ignored or blown off. Instead of going to homecoming, prom, graduation, i was too busy trying to get past the pain and trying to avoid the pain at the time. Instead of starting my life new and going to college i ran away to more abuse. (Granted some i didnt have to do but considering the extent of the abuse, it took a lot just to get to that point). And instead of feeling like a confident young woman who thinks about their future and works toward it, i watch the others in envy, wishing i could see a glimpse of that future in me. I am so mad they made me this way, they might not have directly done it but they took the good parts of youth from me and left me feeling 3 times my age, used and useless.

I am so angry right now. I feel like so much more was stolen besides what they did to me. I feel ruined and i blame them