Thanks Kevin and Bluemountains. I'm trying to take T's advice and look at all of this as maybe something he needs to go through to become the man he will be. But then my bad depressed side thinks the worst like what if he dies from these drugs or hurts himself again in a depression.

When we were in the hospital we both cried so much and he wanted to hold my hand and tell me how much he loved me and he's sorry he uses drugs. He said he wanted to be sober. But then 2nd day home he was out doing meth.

So i am grateful for cps coming in to help and offering the residential treatment program. Maybe they could get him on track. I'm trying to be strong and hopeful.