Oddly enough.... I don't think about it unless it's effecting me. I think I've had it for so long it's just part of my personality. It doesn't bother me at all. I know that may sound weird, but it's true. I know I'm way more things even if I have an illness. But ever since my symptoms have gone through the roof I think about it more. I don't feel angry or upset that this is part of me. I know I have to be vigilant or I get out of control.... but I've known that since I was a kid, long before I knew what was going on.

What makes me frustrated is when I can't share what I'm going through with others. That people don't take it seriously. People are more likely to care if you have a cold than if you have bipolar. If I say, "I'm really not well today," I know I'll get people rolling their eyes instead of, "Take time to take care of yourself." Or even something stupid like that. I know a lot of people who say that people only say they have bipolar just for attention. That's like the biggest joke! Because no one cares if you have bipolar. If you're looking for sympathy, that's the wrong diagnosis to fake....