Sometimes yes and sometimes no, but mostly yes. I've had two of the more stressful things in life happen to me during the past year (death of a parent and divorce) so I wonder if those impactors are making my depression, which I know I've had before, worse which in turn has provided crazy mood swings. I've just had these swings before, when I was in my teens, 20's... when I was not medicated.

Lately it seems everything that gets me high or low is tied to what's going on with my wife. The whole "try to work it out or not" thing with the wife. I can convince myself I need to work it out, have a good day with the wife, then go home and have a family member I respect tell me how dumb it is that I'd work it out with her and that sends me into a tail spin.

I know I have to make the choice that is best for ME, but I have no idea what that is and I am so utterly confused by what happens (either with my wife or then with a family member) that it puts me into a high or low. I then tend to crash in either direction and never really see the middle ground as of late.