Hi Kevin, welcome to PC.

I was also bullied in high school, depressed, and never fit in. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 30 (almost 33 now,) despite many signs and symptoms. It's really not that uncommon, I've found.

Meds take a while to kick in. And everyone has a different physiology so what works for one person doesn't for the next. Just keep in touch with your pdoc or whoever is dosing your meds. Try keeping a mood chart and that will help you learn your triggers. I'm a pro at racing thoughts. I know it's horrible when your brain won't stop, that's my primary manic symptom, I think.

You're going to be okay. I know it may not seem that way right now, but hang in there and you will be okay. Feel free to ask as many questions here as you want and vent. We've all been through good/bad/worse at one time or antoher, and we are always ready to listen and help when we can.