I am very tired from sitting at this computer writing in a journal I just started. I have been at it for hours. I just produce a bunch of words. I feel like I am thinking my way to some destination, but I am not!

I am thinking myself into going around in circles.

I am afraid to do ordinary things. Being here in my apartment alone by myself does not seem too healthy for me. But I fear going out to do anything. I don't have agoraphobia. When I am out, sometimes I fear coming back here.

Fear and loneliness.