Leed, the isolation is bad enough from a depression standpoint, but what also makes me mad is that my parents live on a farm and there is no public transport and I have to borrow their car to get out for the day.

The car is only available after 1pm because my dad works for some reason. And even then he might need it after 1pm as well. My mum offers to drive me out in her car in the mornings, but I can't drive her car because i'm not insured for it.

So on Monday I want to go to 0. jobsearch 1. psychologist, 2. doctor 3. support group. I could take my dad's car except he's not back from work in time for my first appointment. So I'd have to get my mum to drive me. But then there's no way of getting back from the support group meeting which finishes at 930pm. Unless of course I just sleep over at my old place (my grandmother's house) on monday nights.

So that's what makes me mad. It's sometimes an ordeal to try and get out of here and run my life from here.

You don't have to reply to all of this, I'm just happy putting this down somewhere to release my frustration.