I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. My sister went thru a very (almost exact) psychotic break as yours sounds like. Please please please go see your pdoc asap. Once your meds are adjusted things will calm down and your knowledge vs fears will take over this. Take care of yourself and get the help you need fast, before things get worse for you. My sister didn't even need to go stay in the hospital, thru therapy and meds after a month she still has the thoughts but can rationalize them as just what they are and she chooses to ignore them.