this is hard for me to talk about and triggering... please make sure you are in a safe place before you read on...





i have been getting so many flashbacks and mem's coming up from the SRA.. seems like each day.. sometimes every few hours can just be a struggle to get through.. and when they hit me they hit me so hard and so fast its hard to pull myself back from it and ground myself cause its all so new to me.... all these ones that are hitting are not pieces that i have gotten or picked up from before all these are new.. so i am left feeling i guess sort of unstable or shocked by whats hitting me.... my T and i are trying to work on it... when it happens and i finally do get a little grounded again i remember how gorry it was and cant help but puke and puke..... my T just sits by me while im doing this telling me to open my eyes.. see where i am.. and see i am safe.. its so hard when its all right there at you though... its so so hard...

is there any help anyone can give me.. are there any other SRA survivors here?

Kat