Hon, you want it... and you will get it! Your heart is reaching out to make those words yours.
You, too, cannot be hurt that way any more! You are not a child that can't speak out for herself. You're a grown woman and you know that you can say NO MORE. You know it's wrong and you can stop it. If you put yourself in The Now, you know that if your perp tried it again, you'd at the very least ask him to leave and the most, put a knee where it counts. It can't happen again! You CAN make those words yours!
You have already survived! You lived through it. IT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN! You won't let it! Internalize those words. Repeat them until you believe it in your heart of hearts. They will be YOURS then!
When you go through the grief of having lost your innocence, the rest will come. I'll be here to tell you how it happened for me. I'm sure you can find something that will ring a bell or touch you in some way and you'll realize you've taken a step forward.
Don't forget. I'm here for you. That's a promise!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.