To Everyone in Pain and how to live in it?

I just want to say that I feel like this alot. In fact for months now (cant even remember when it got this bad), I have been very very down and feeling the way you feel Empath.

It is so very hard. I have major depression and no drugs, experimental or otherwise have worked for 30 years; neight has therapy.

I have felt better than this. Not great .. not heappy but better and "better" looks really great to me right now. I am praying for "better". And even though I say I have felt better,, it is hard to remember that.

Can anyone relate to this? Does anyone have any methods of coping when you are so bad off, you can hardly get out of bed, miss your therapy apppointments (which dont help at this point anyway), and it is a huge effort to write.

And, please someone, hit the keyboard. You never know whose life you might be saving or making just a little bit better if even for a little while.

I am waiting and hoping for someone to write. Thanks for reading.