thanks SK, i think you have a point: i think maybe i've been hearing all this talk of PD and just going "oh my god, i do that, i feel that" etc.

the problem is i'm getting myself worked up about it. i'm probably just being daft, to be honest.

the sex thing, the crying and the feeling sick, i honestly don't know why, i think it's partly fear of contamination, partly and invasion thing. the tdoc reckons it's all related to the surgery, which kind of makes sense. but i don't know why my reaction is so violent.

i'm not sure what you're getting at in terms of the mania, i have had manic episodes, including some i've been hospitalised for, but i'm not quite sure how this relates?