I think it sounds like a reaction to your father's death. That's a big deal, especially if you have memories of abuse there must be many emotions involved, that you probably reasonably want to avoid. You could call pdoc and say how manic you're feeling, and ask if there's a med adjustment you could do. I'm allowed to take my 2 klonopins at night when needed, for example - so long as I'm not drinking. Try not to drink, you know how it just makes all this **** worse. Good luck, keep posting.
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