No one was there to help. How do you trust people when there has never been anyone to help you in the past? Everyone has always let you down. Mother abused us, grandparents abused us, stepfather abused us, his friends abused us. The teacher would hit us with a yard stick. People would be nice to you to get you in close so they could hurt you more. Wish people would just be mean so I would understand them. Be nice then they are mean. He used to say the devil was in him and that's why he had to hurt me. He would cry. Then a little while later he would hit you and hurt you inside. He said that he put demons in me. T says no. There aren't demons in me. But I'm confused.