Yes, there are people here for you on this website. You are being heard.

Very sorry that you feel so lonely. You are not beyond repair though, don't give up. Isn't there anyone in your life that could lend you an ear and/or a shoulder? A counsellor? might be the option. They might lessen this feeling of isolation and oppresiveness that stifle you, as well as help making snese (and going beyond) the "flashbacks".

Do feel free to vent, there are ears (and shoulders) here. You are not alone.

Take care.