Thanks guys - I'm already late for work and shouldn't be typing this. What feels out of control is that my husband, who as you know was depressed for 2 years because he was unemployed, yet was too depressed to become employed, was fired three months ago. With our T, we worked out an agreement that he would have 3 months to look for a new job or get back into school, to reduce the pressure that I feared would send him back into a new depressive episode. Well, the 3 months is up today, and as far as I know, he hasn't even looked for a job. He's been busy and productive, sure, but.... no job, and no school. We tried talking about it with T on Tuesday but he clammed up and stopped talking. By the end of the session, we got him to loosen up a bit and came up with some interim steps (he has T again today at 1pm, for example) but still... Yeah, I know I can only control myself, but a) I can't handle another 2 years of him being mortally depressed, and b) I can't handle another 2 years of being the sole provider and dealing with my family's harrassment about it.



I'll be ok. Just getting through the day today.