kris i could go on for hours about tv and the role it plays in helping and/or worsening my depression.

I don't have that weekend problem though, mostly i have not been watching the typical daytime fare. as my depression grew i found it very difficult to concentrate on any of the drama shows that i love. west wing used to be a "must see" passion and i haven't watched it in over a year. things got so bad that eventually the only thing i could focus on was trading spaces. easy to watch, i really enjoy the show, and also easy to nap through, and i could just wake up at the end and see the "reveal" and be satisfied. and trading spaces is on like 16 hours of the day so it became a "comfort food" on weekdays and weekends.

with mail i haven't even been checking my mail. that used to be a thing, where i would check the box on sunday and then remember. but past few months i have let the mail pile up in the box and only get it when i am up to it, usually at a random point during the week. this is another bad sign of my depression along with my not paying bills. there could very well be a disability check in my mailbox right now but i just don't want to go downstairs and look.

I have been able to concentrate some more on tv. west wing is still out except for last week was the first time i have been able to watch it (that was one of my signs that i thought things might finally be improving for me) but i still rely a lot on tv. the sitcoms on thursday are a staple. i've been able to get into some drama again too and on tuesdays i watch gilmore girls, 24, and judging amy. i really enjoy them and they are sort of the only "anchor" i have in my whole life that i can look forward to, and find some relief on tuesdays because i know if i can make it to the eve i will be ok. 24 is off for a month for american idol (might be back this week) so it has been sketchy this month, don't know what to do with myself between 9 and 10. read? wish i could.

thanks kris and we should compare tv notes sometime.

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