I do not like being in the hospital at all, it is always a last resort for me. When I get to the point where my suicidal thoughts are becoming more real and planning them out as if I am really going to hurt myself that is when I go. I have gone twice once right on the brink of trying and once right after, I waited to long on that one. I have been hospitalized 3 times, twice for depression w suicidal thoughts/actions and once for mania. I had my husband take me the first time because I was in the passenger seat of our car while he ran in the bank and I imagined taking the car and driving it out into the oncoming traffic. I was holding myself in the seat and just broke down crying and told him to take me to ER right away. They admitted me and got me stable. I think its a very fine line between breaking points though so if its questionable just go on in.