So I had a bad week last week. Had so much trouble sleeping and hadn't eaten much at all. But the last few days, today, yesterday, and Friday, I feel like that I've reached a positive turning point. Friday I went to the career center in my hometown and was able to get a little help with my financial situation. I may also have gotten a lead on potentially getting a decent car based on my income, which isn't much these days. Then yesterday, I decided to go for an impromptu extended bike ride and made a surprise visit to my mother. She is about a twenty minute car ride away from me too. This was the first time that I actually rode my bicycle in over three years. It felt really good to get out. It was about 2-3 hr bike ride. And today, to keep my mind occupied and busy, I did some cleaning. So that helped a lot. Then, just a little while ago, I received some sad and upsetting news about a close friend of mine. She just found out that she has lung cancer. She is the mother of my best friend who died from Cystic Fibrosis back in 1997. I'm not really sure how I feel about this. My first instinct was to feel sad and could feel my eyes start to tear up which is usually a trigger for me. Then it stopped. Now I'm not so sure if I feel sad or sorry for her now. I just hope that I don't get too depressed and put too much focus on this. Anyways, just felt that I needed to write these feelings out.