I don't know what to say. I mean I don't know how she could leave you. I don't have those answers. All I can say is that it all isn't about looks for me. It's about someone to talk to and be there for me every night. My boyfriend isn't the most handsome man in the world, but I love him deeply. He never hit me or abused me, and he doesn't buy me expensive things. In fact, he believes in a $20 minimum for gifts which is fine with me. I give him as much as I can, and don't expect nothing from him. I have loved men so deeply and always felt fat and ugly and not good enough either. But I found someone, and you can too.